Second half semester. Second day.

Today is not the greatest of days. I usually am the one to get upset by things that other people do that I find unacceptable and inconsiderate. However, today I am upset at my own unacceptable and inconsiderate actions. Today I only had one class, that is stats. It's one of the few classes that I share with my friend. But today I said something that I thought at the time was just a silly joke, but I guess she didn't take it so lightly. She stopped talking to me for the time when we went into class and till the end of class, and really, I felt rejected and uncomfortable with her. Even though she still answered with a nod or shake when I questioned her, she refused to communicate further with me, but still spoke with other people. I persistently tried to speak with her, but still no luck. Is this what it feels like to be hated by someone you care about so much? And why am I so careless. I realized that my words are definetely two-edged swords, and that it can so easily cut away at others. I didn't notice that I had wounded someone so close. And yet, when I noticed that I had done something wrong, why was it so hard to actually know what it was exactly?! And so, my friend's confession came after when she said straight out exactly what I searched for, my answer to why she would not speak to me. I was so hurt, even tears started to well up in my eyes. But why?! Surely she was hurting more? My friend, I am so sorry! I say with sincerity, please don't take this to heart, and I hope that I can change to become a better and more caring person.